I am anxious,
I am nervous
I am scared
and afraid.
I've tried climbing
all the ladders
I tried to sing, I tried to pray.
I am full
of endeavours
but all my best has failed
when I am falling
love is holding me
I am found
and I am safe
sometimes I wandered
in the darkness
sometimes been blinded
on the way
sometimes I'm stronger
sometimes I'm week
sometimes my faith
fades far away,
and I'm empty of endeavour
and there's nothing left to say
while I'm turning
love is seeking me
I am found
and I am safe.
why oh why
sighs my broken heart
I've failed before I try
whenever wandering to and fro'
I hear redemptions cry.
In the midst of my doubtings
in my struggles, in my pain
for I am held
when I am fearful
and I am safe
for I am found.
I am nervous
I am scared
and afraid.
I've tried climbing
all the ladders
I tried to sing, I tried to pray.
I am full
of endeavours
but all my best has failed
when I am falling
love is holding me
I am found
and I am safe
sometimes I wandered
in the darkness
sometimes been blinded
on the way
sometimes I'm stronger
sometimes I'm week
sometimes my faith
fades far away,
and I'm empty of endeavour
and there's nothing left to say
while I'm turning
love is seeking me
I am found
and I am safe.
why oh why
sighs my broken heart
I've failed before I try
whenever wandering to and fro'
I hear redemptions cry.
In the midst of my doubtings
in my struggles, in my pain
for I am held
when I am fearful
and I am safe
for I am found.
posted by Unknown at 2:07 pm
6 Comments:
I've just read the last few entries in an effort to catch up. You have such a gift with words, Geoff. Please keep writing. Keep putting it out here. Keep getting it out. They are such a balm in this crazy world.
Candy... thank you so much for your kind words of encouragement. They are so appreciated and so very timely. "I am found" is an attempt to be as raw as I can be without reverting to any shallow "Christian jargon", any falsities that can be so easy to insert in a line or two. I look at my work and so often I find myself writing about spiritual possibilities that may be well beyond my reach. I have to ask myself; "What are these words saying to those who truly have no hope and no way out of dreadful situations and hopeless emotions and crippling doubts, fears and guilt?" I am there.... so often I am there, and I wish that my songs could reach deep inside me to speak of the real spiritual journey that I am on. I hope this makes sense. I so hope the song makes sense. Please keep calling by, it's great hearing from you.
Thank you Geoff. I feel very welcome here. It's a safe place.
"I wish that my songs could reach deep inside me to speak of the real spiritual journey that I am on"
Well, I don't know you at all, Geoff, but I can see from your posts that you write about the doubts and the darkness, that they are part of your journey as well, as they are a part of everyone's :) It amazes me how much of a blessing it is to see people be real and raw. It assists in binding up my own wounds.
Thank you so much Sue for your kind and encouraging comments. I am very busy dealing with my sadnesses and regrets.. so much of a journey.. so many changes, so many wrong turns.. but I suppose that is life and life must be graced.
"I am found" ...
That resonates so deep with me Geoff ... in the midst of uncertainty ... of my my own sinful messes ... of times I am in the maze and can't see my way out ... of the times when I am at peace ... when I am at rest ... the times when I just am. I. Am. Found. Yes. Thankyou for the reminder.
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